RANTING:
have been working all day long since the beginning of the year
didnt even have time to meet up with friends
sometimes i do feel that i've neglect them
but yet at times, i feel that they no longer need my accompany, simply because they'll always have others around them who are better companion than i do.
so with that reason constantly bugging my mind, i buried myself with work,
or else i'll feel so empty, so lonely, so lifeless

working at taka for laurent bernard chocolatier, and jean philippe darcis at marina bay sands
at taka, this job has indeed given me a lot of exposure
never would i thought that i could actually go into conversation with people so easily and comfortably
the store beside mine, originally called bistrotea, but now blueribbon,
there's 3 of them, elvina, scarlott and robin
they're all sixteen, seventeen this year, whom have just gotten their O'levels results
once you start chatting with people,
it's simply natural for them to ask you this question
"so what are you doing now? poly? jc? waiting for O's?"
my answer would definitely be "neither of the above".
i've never thought that the answer above, would actually hurt me so much
it's like, you can simply see from their human reaction,
"ohh...okay, so what are u doing now?"
of course i told them the very fact that i'm in a baking school
they "felt" that it was very cool.
but i can just feel that, the first thing that came into their mind was, I'm a dropout. I'm from ITE.
i dont mean that they arent nice people, but i'm just trying to say that all normal human are simply just so realistic
can't they just stop looking merely from the surface, but within it?
i cant help feeling upset too, though i genuinely love what i'm doing now
i cant help feeling leftout when my friends around me talk about jc stuffs, like GP, PW, maths,econs, etc
i couldnt understand a single shit
most of the times, i just have to pull on a masquerade and smile, dont I?
life has been really tough on me recently,
i guess i'm suffering from split personality now.
but seriously, who knows?who cares?
the very answer is: NO ONE BOTHERS.

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The new year has begun, it's definitely high time for me to set my new year resolutions...
1. to bless all my loved ones to stay healthy and happy
2. to have an exercise regime
3. to venture and experiment with new recipes
4. to spend more time with my loved ones
5. to tidy my "awesome" kitchen
6. learn to bear with hardship and simply just suck it up
7. deal with "human" relationship, especially at work
8. open and shut my "crazy" mouth at the right moment
9. improve my baking skills, my decorating skills
10. to save 5k by the end of this year
These are probably my top 10 new year resolutions for now.
Got to make it work, [quoted by Tim Gunn]
yeah, totally.
seriously need to work on No. 6 and 7...
life is never smooth-sailing, Regina.
for things to change for the better, you've got to change first
the solution is right in front of you; it just depends on you now....

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