i'm feeling really horrible...
nobody truly understands...
i just want to have someone to lie on, to rely on, to be dependent on
i no longer feel the substance of life,
i want to get away
i want to escape from reality
i want to stop what i'm doing now!!!
i hate the stupid retarded actions i'm always doing
wasting my precious time,
as though there's no tommorrow
tonnes of homework awaiting for me to complete,
yet i leave them alone
burying myself in this huge pile of rubbish
which doesnt do me any good
but simply makes my life more miserable, more miserable
i no longer know how to face the world with my real self
but a masked regina
am i still the regina i know, my friends know?
i doubt so, truly doubt so....
as i'm typing, i'm tearing
my heart is breaking, hurting like mad,
but who knows? in fact, who cares?
maybe only my yeye, who's in heaven knows...
i hate myself, seriously....
eachday, i tell myself it would get better,
but the more i control, the worser it gets
it's really getting on my nerves, driving me nuts
i guess i seriously need someone, but yet i cant express myself
i feel like i'm a foreigner,
trying extremely hard to make a local understand my needs, my wants,
but they simply cant understand what i'm trying to say, to interpret
breaking down isnt going to help,
but i cant control it...
i really want to escape.....

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